I don't know why, or how. But I'm feeling overwhelmed. I feel like I don't have much enough time in a day. Or during weekends.
I have house chores. I have pets. I have a full time work. Apartment. I have parents - separated. So I have a dad and a mom. Both live far away from me. I can't pin point which one is the one thing that really weighs me down. Lack of sleep? Dehydrated? My apartment that's very good in collecting dust? Things I have in the apartment I need to sell but I'm not posting on online marketplace sites. The baby and a toddler next door that cries a lot in a day? The neighbors dog that barks constantly?
Which one is the most important one that I need to prioritize? Money? So job? My filing of taxes for my freelancing business?
Do I waste time?
Is my internet slow? I already have a washing machine?
Is my apartment chaotic, disorganized and filthy???
WHAT?!
So much posts and blurbs about adulting. I think this is it. You have time behind you that you've already spent. And a limited time ahead of you that you can actually calculate how much is remaining from your previous experience. In the middles it's easy to feel stuck, overwhelmed, and anxious.
Maybe I'm a functioning depressed person?
Is it because I unknowingly and unconsciously distant myself from my family, high school friends, college friends, work friends.
Am I doing a lot or am I doing too little?
I'm tired. I told a friend, I'm tired. It's like being a cook in a busy kitchen. The orders kept coming in. I finish doing one meal then there's four more in queue.
Today
Work on Pickering
Friday
BST10
Weekend
William Osler PDF document redo
Next Week
Finish Town of Pickering
Start Thunder Bay
This month
Get EasyCash on BDO
Pay Meralco
Pay SkyCable
Send money to my dad
Pay all credit card - due 29 July
August
Finish Thunder Bay document
End of Deque Full Course access
Company townhall
Mae's birthday
September
Trip to Japan
My birthday
Company 10k run
October
Jackilyn's birthday
December
Move out of apartment somewhere quiet in the province outside Metro Manila, ideally near a beach
These are only things I need to do because these have "due dates".