Sunshine and Raindrops

I'm Walking On Sunshine

I didn't see any sunshine.

Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head

I didn't see any raindrops.

Minsan Sa May Kalayaan

He sat beside me. I took a glance of his face. He looked soo much like somebody that I used to know, or I still know but haven't talked to in a while. He's a big guy. Tall one I suppose. We were sitting so I wouldn't know for sure. Wearing his black tshirt and a denim pants. I decided to check out the shoes --- DAMN IT! I said, "Puurfect!" It was a pair of chucks.

His hands i could recognize. Even this guy's shoulders.

I wanted to hold his hand. I wanted to lean on his shoulders. But I couldn't. Because...

He's a random fellow jeepney passenger!! XD

'Cos I'm a Wanderer

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;

The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.

From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;

Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.[1]

-J.R.R. Tolkien, The Lord of the Rings

Li + Kurt Cobain + Kaliwete

I like it - I'm not gonna crack
I miss you - I'm not gonna crack
I love you - I'm not gonna crack
I killed you - I'm not gonna crack

Welcoming Rodents

I will never forget my first night here in my current apartment. I moved in all my stuff around four in the afternoon. The sun was still up and noises from the outside of the house like tricycles and neighbors chatter were present. By the time when that the darkness and just when I was about to prepare myself to go to bed. I grabbed my toothbrush nd hand towel to freshen myself up, I found cockroaches in the sink area they were so many I hurriedly brushed my teeth and fly back to my bed.

Few days after that memorable night, my landlady assisted me to move to the 2nd floor as we have agreed. Another first night that IT had to use the simk to brush teet h I found another clan of cockroaches in the kitches, they were everywhere!!

No question about how clean is this old house that I live in. The question lies what is beneath this house.

So long, my very hospitable rodents!

6:24 PM
11/30/2012

We were both young..

Listening to Taylor Swift while waiting for the results of my chest ultrasound inside this hospital. So classic.

I've said it a thousand times --- I DISCOVERED TAYLOR SWIFT!!!!

Back in October of 2008, I was soo into this guy I met during my high school friend's wedding. We were paired up by my friend, Jackilyn and the groom, Bryan. He was Bryan's friend from College. I was told that I'd be partnered up with Bry's friend who was a little, too, picky with love. At dinner, the night before the big day, Kevin, the bride's little sister, gave me some hints about this mystery man. That guy was a med-proper student and an absolutely smart guy.

At the wedding, my partner was late!! Big fail. I didn't walk the aisle with him. It was at the reception when we got the chance to walk as partners. He wasn't a good looking guy. Not so tall. Shape? A little heavier than normal guys. Fair complexion. Wears glasses. Nope, he wasn't my type at all.

Maybe two or three days agter the wedding, I cyber stalked the guy on facebook. And I got more curious. I asked for the guy's blog. And the rest is history.. I liked him for his posts. :-)

I got addicted to reading his blog and felt some love. I was a little high, I used google to help me out in finding the right song for my mood. And they gave me Taylor Swift's Love Story.

The song was only played on local radio around February of 2009.

Now, at the hospital..
waiting for the results,
wishing for one last glance.

2:22 PM
11/9/2012

Fuck Yeah, Leonardo DiCaprio!

I love speeches. And the Dark Side.

Darth Vader gives a commencement address...

Ladies and Gentlemen of the Vassar College class of '99...embrace the
Dark Side. If I could offer you only one tip for the future, The Dark
Side would be it. The long-term benefits of The Dark Side have been
proved by the Dark Lords of The Sith, whereas the rest of my advice has
no basis more reliable than my own meandering cruelty and conquests.

I will dispense this advice now...

Enjoy the power and beauty of your planet. Oh, never mind, you will
never understand the power and the beauty of your planet until after the
Empire has destroyed it in a futile attempt to find the Rebel Base. But
trust me, in twenty years, you will look back at photos of your home and
recall, in a way you can't grasp now, how blissfully ignorant you were,
and how fabulous your planet really looked before it was a pile of
burning space rubble. Your planet is not as dull as you imagine.

Don't worry about the Rebellion - or worry, but know that worrying is as
effective as trying to make the Kessel run in a landspeeder.

The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed
your twisted mind. The kind that fire a direct hit into your reactor
core at 4 PM on some idle Tuesday.

Do in one Death Star officer every day.

Scheme.

Don't disobey the Emperor's orders; don't put up with people who disobey
yours.

Hate.

Don't waste your time on Storm troopers. They can't hit the broad side
of a barn.

The battle is long and in the end, it's only with yourself...and your
idiot son.

Remember the prophecies of the Emperor; ignore the whinings of your
bratty upstart farm boy of a son. If you succeed in doing this, tell me
how.

Keep your old light saber, but change your costume slightly with every
sequel.

Destroy.

Don't feel guilty if you have no misgivings about joining the Dark Side.
The most interesting people I know didn't have any respect at 22 for
their victim's lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year olds I know
still don't.

Have plenty of minions.

Be kind to your right hand, you'll miss it when it's gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe your son will join you,
maybe he won't. Maybe you'll convince your daughter to become a dark
Jedi and assist you in your campaign of hatred and destruction; maybe
she'll become a rebel leader and marry a scruffy-looking nerf herder.

Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate
yourself either - your destiny is guided by the Force - so is everybody
else's.

Enjoy the Force. Exploit it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it
or what other people think of your "sorcerer's ways." The ability to
destroy a planet is insignificant next to its power.

Kill. Even if you have no one to kill but a meaningless extra.

Listen to what the Emperor has forseen, even if you don't follow his
prophecies.

Do not take your mask off, it will only make you feel ugly. And
vulnerable.

Get to know your parents. You'll never know when they'll turn out to be
your arch enemies.

Be nice to your siblings. They are your best link to your Jedi lineage
and the ones most likely to become Jedi in the future.

Understand that lackeys come and go. But with a precious few, you
should keep from crushing their tracheas. Work hard to bridge the gaps
in geography and lifestyle, for as the more desperate you become, the
more you will need to send bounty hunters to do your dirty work for you.

Live on Dagobah once, but leave before you get foot rot.

Live on Tattooine once, but leave before you get heat stroke.

Travel. Preferably in your own custom TIE Fighter.

Accept certain inalienable truths: rebellions will rise, the Imperial
Senate will have to be disbanded, you too will get old. And when you
do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, rebels were easily
crushed, the Imperial Senate was subservient, and citizens respected
their Emperor.

Respect your Emperor.

Don't expect your son to rule the galaxy with you. Maybe he'll give in
to his anger, maybe he'll strike you down, but you'll never know when
he'll whine pleadingly and you'll find yourself turning to the Light
Side and saving his sorry butt.

Don't strike down your old Jedi Master, or he will become more powerful
than you could possibly imagine.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply
it, or I'll crush your throat. Advice is a form of nostalgia.
Dispensing it is a way of fishing your humanity from the depths of sin,
wiping it off, putting black body armor over the ugly parts and
redeeming it for more than its worth.

But trust me on the Dark Side.

source: http://www.paul.eykamp.net/
~~

Another Chance

Exactly almost two years ago when I was sitting inside a conference room facing
a group of panel from ABS-CBN Star Cinema's Creatives. I had to choose a Tagalog
movie and defend it to them. Tell them Strength, the Weakness, the O, and the T
of the movie I chose. With all the courage I could pull out inside my body and
all the creative juices that I could get from my brain, I tried to make them
believe that I could be the one. The writer that could make her bosses laugh and
cry through her stories. A writer who'd closely collaborate with other bunch
of other writers. A writer who could pour her heart out and touch millions of
audiences.

But how could someone do that if I, myself, haven't experienced love. Endured
pain. Get hurt. And, I, who is someone who hasn't offered someone all she
can offer for the happiness of someone she really loves.

ONE MORE CHANCE.

I must admit that I haven't given this movie the enough attention it deserves.
As someone who'd been a Hollywood movie fan, I have never ever realized that
a Pinoy movie could ever make me cry. Not once. Not twice. Many times.

Ako ba si Popoy o ako si Bashang?

I would write down all the quotable quotes from this movie, if I wasn't
wiping up my tears the whole time.

Ang sakit sakit.

Maybe I have never really experienced love. Maybe I have never been hurt in
my life. I was really affected. Every line in this movie touched me. I could
see me playing a role of either one of them.

Naiintindihan ko na. I am really really sorry. I love you. Good night.

11:12 pm
11/6/12

Red Lippy

Released last October 22, with 16 original tracks, Taylor Swift's new album entitled RED.

The Last Time, I'm Asking You This
Ayun na naman yung maingay na gitara ng Snow Patrol. You cannot not distinguish his voice and the band's Don't get me wrong because I, too, like listening to Snow Patrol.

Stay Stay Stay
Repeat repeat repeat

We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together
Still is the best track, a sure ball single to hyped up the album

Begin Again
On a Wednesday, in a cafe.. such a dramatic words.

Holy Ground
Fast rythm. No dull part.

22
Another weird-clever-bitter Taylor Swift songg~

I'll publish a more reliable, legit album review ---- soon! Maybe another Taylor's album. Hek! :-)
This review wouldn't be possible without my lilililllily thoughtful boyfriend. Hii~ Thanks for the copy. :*
~~~

Taylor's RED available here:

Remember, Remember the 5th of November

Do you remember when you helped me out moving the last batch of my staff from Fairview to Sampaloc?

Do you remember when you accompanied me with fetching my things in Legarda?

Do you remember when half of Metro Manila was inder flood and we met at Espanya?

Do you remember when I secretly handed you the mgnet that IT bought you in Singapore?

Do you remember when we walked in to Manila Hotel's lobby and sat in there for a minute or two and took pictures of each other?

Do you remember when I suddenly decided to drop off at Boni to meet you cos I can't for anoter night to read your letter?

Do you remember when you brought me to Bangbang nd I had the first taste of Lamien?

Do you remember when we went to MOA, we sat there by the seaside nd waited until the waves crashed onto the huge rocks and made us slightly wet

Do you remember when IT was really really hungry in my place and you came by from work so we could eat together

Do you remember when you successfully convinced me to ride the rollercoaster in that theme park, I was a scarred cat and all I did was screamed out your name with a curse word.

Do you remember when we first kissed on that bus?

Do you remember when you first held my hand when we were about to cross that street to get to the jeepney terminal.

Do you remember when you first brought me to your University and we had a really nice memorabe tour?

Do you remember when we met at the bus terminal and we just wanted to get out of the city but ended up bumping into my brother and m sister-in-law. And still manged to still get out of the city.

Do you remember when you came all the way from Commonwealth to my place in fairview to send me flower on Valentines day? I wish you had seen how hppy you made me that very day.

Do you remember when I got upset onetime, though it erent a couple back then and you gave me ice cream as peace offering.

Do you remember when you had you haircut nd you thought it was too short, nd when I saw I tried t hide my smile, but you were just too cute and adorable that day.

Do you remember when I got my un blue petite electric fan and une blue petite pail.

Do you remember when we tried this old Chinese restaurant and we enjoyed eating their siopao?

Do you remember when we were sitting on the bench when you were waiting for for the bus and we aked each other's questions :-)

Do you remember when I sneaked out of the company's sport activity tô meet you so we could have a tour of the Doulous.

Do you remembèr when we talked for hours at jollibee that night and we both lost track of time.

Do you remember when watched this movie that did not scare the hell out of of us so we just decided to do something else.

Do you remember when I was too awkward to say goodbyes, I didnt know exactly what to do so when I hugged you I also tapped your back.

Do you remember onè Sunday and you decided you want to see me and you surprised me when you magically showed up at our front door.

Do you remember wheever we would sneak oût of the office hoping no one would notice everytime we would meet up at 7eleven.

Do you remember when I was craving fôr Tapa King and we also got a chance tô watch a football play.

Do you remember when ôur officemates decided to go out. The boys played billiards, you were winning. And us, girls, decided tô play bowling, and I was leading.

Do you remember the company's summer outing and we spent some hours alone kayaking.

Do you remember during Mothers day and you got your mom's white e. It was our monthsary so you got me flowers also. And it kdept my room scented for more than a week.

Do you remember when we walked from the office all the way to the play ground along Pedro Gil that night we were stranded

Do you remember when we sat on that poorly constructed concrete bench along Espanya Manila and talked for hours

Do you remember when I used to live in Fairview and we would both listen to BNO on our separate way home using our phones

Do you remember when we randomly felt like drinking that night at that Mexican Restaurant and I had one or two bottles and you had moree

This post was inspired by Guy Fawkes Night and 'Do You Remember' by Jack Johnson.

Revised 11/12/12