Dear October,
I just can't wait until you are over.
Maybe biased and quite possibly jaded,
Clarice
P.S.
"..and I am waiting for you to be over too."
Just a Phase Incubus
31.10.12
30.10.12
do, re, mi, fa - SOL.
I wanna go home so bad. :(
What a painful month it had been.
All the jealousy. The Pride and Ego. Hurtful words.
Silence. Sleepless nights. Bitterness. Loss of appetite.
Darkness. Unable to walk and move. Laziness towards work.
What I plan to do now are these, and wish that these activities would help me.
See ang hangout with my high school friends.
Watch Romeo and Juliet, starring the young Leonardo YummieCarpio.
Record myself performing Linger by The Cranberries.
Dog walk. Feed him. Shower him all the love that I still have. Remind him how to play fetch.
Finish a book in a day, The Devil amd Miss Pyrnn by Paulo Coelho.
SLEEEEEEEEEEEEP!
Use my old school Minox Camera. We need a roll of film.
Sing for ABBA and dance with Lady Gaga.
Bond with my old Pop. See my nephew.
See If Only and cry all my heart out.
Cook! Gain my lost appettite back.
Bike from Lucban to Luisiana and back. And bike again around the town.
Catch the sunrise :)
Kalkalin at ibalintong yung buong bahay! Haha
Love. Soft Laughters. Joy. Forgiveness.
Acceptance. Faith. A smile. Pray.
And retain every memory of the good times.
No mistakes. No regrets.
Just lessons learned.
That was a good fight. Drop your sword.
And you may now walk away from the battle field.
Time to go home, Soldier.
27.10.12
Leap of Faith
No matter how hideous I look in these pictures, I'll still post it.
Sometimes, all you need is a single jump to cheer you up.
Cheers!
xoxo
23.10.12
MAXIMUM EARGASM!
Orgasm is the word they use for that heavenly feeling that all over the body.
Eargasm is the word to be used for those sounds you want to hear over and over until you feel oh-soo-gooood.
Here are my top 3 picks:
Funny The Way It Is - Dave Matthews Band (1:05 - 1:10, 1:50-1:54, 3:57-4:01)
Imposible - Rivermaya (3:13 - 05:07)
The Remedy - Jason Mraz (0:00 - 0:09)
I'm not a guitar person. I'm in love with every sound of piano keys.
But that crispy sound of the guitar, GODDDAMMNIT!!
Eargasm is the word to be used for those sounds you want to hear over and over until you feel oh-soo-gooood.
Here are my top 3 picks:
Funny The Way It Is - Dave Matthews Band (1:05 - 1:10, 1:50-1:54, 3:57-4:01)
Imposible - Rivermaya (3:13 - 05:07)
The Remedy - Jason Mraz (0:00 - 0:09)
I'm not a guitar person. I'm in love with every sound of piano keys.
But that crispy sound of the guitar, GODDDAMMNIT!!
19.10.12
Sing this song to me, love.
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| Night Sky Over Kentmere, a photo by Richard Berry Photography on Flickr. |
When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?
And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find
'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up
I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not, and who I am
I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up, still looking up.
I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)
16.10.12
eat. pray. love. get hurt. keep calm. move on. eat. pray. and love again.
Last night, I wanted to post this message on my room's door:
DON'T
LEAVE
THIS
FUCKING
ROOM
WITHOUT
A
FUCKING
PEN
AND
A
FUCKING
NOTEBOOK.
Or you'll die.
As long as I have my pen and my notebook with me, I believe I will stay sane anywhere I go. I peed twice last night. I washed my face thrice. And I tried to fall asleep for as many times that I could remember. But I couldn't, so I stayed up, wide awake until five in the morning until it was my body that gave up.
On a lighter note, here are some quotable quotes I booked marked from the book that night.
You gotta let go, Groceries. Otherwise you're gonna make yourself sick. Never gonna have a good night's sleep again. You'll just toss and turn forever, beatin' on yourself for being such a fiasco in life. "What's wrong with me? How come I screw up all my relationships? Why am I such a failure?" lemme guess -- that's probably what you were up at all hours doin' to yourself again last night.
What if we acknowledged that we have a bad relationship, and we stuck it out, anyway? What if we admitted that we make each other nuts, we fight constantly and hardly ever have sex, but we can't live each other, so we deal with it? And then we could spend our lives together-- in misery, but happy not to be apart.
There are only two questions that human beings have ever fought over, all through history. "How much do you love me?" and "Who's in charge?" Everything else is somehow manageable. But these two questions of love and control undo us all, trip us up and cause war, grief and suffering.
People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
When the karma of a relationship is done, only love remains. It's safe. Let go.
DON'T
LEAVE
THIS
FUCKING
ROOM
WITHOUT
A
FUCKING
PEN
AND
A
FUCKING
NOTEBOOK.
Or you'll die.
As long as I have my pen and my notebook with me, I believe I will stay sane anywhere I go. I peed twice last night. I washed my face thrice. And I tried to fall asleep for as many times that I could remember. But I couldn't, so I stayed up, wide awake until five in the morning until it was my body that gave up.
On a lighter note, here are some quotable quotes I booked marked from the book that night.
You gotta let go, Groceries. Otherwise you're gonna make yourself sick. Never gonna have a good night's sleep again. You'll just toss and turn forever, beatin' on yourself for being such a fiasco in life. "What's wrong with me? How come I screw up all my relationships? Why am I such a failure?" lemme guess -- that's probably what you were up at all hours doin' to yourself again last night.
What if we acknowledged that we have a bad relationship, and we stuck it out, anyway? What if we admitted that we make each other nuts, we fight constantly and hardly ever have sex, but we can't live each other, so we deal with it? And then we could spend our lives together-- in misery, but happy not to be apart.
There are only two questions that human beings have ever fought over, all through history. "How much do you love me?" and "Who's in charge?" Everything else is somehow manageable. But these two questions of love and control undo us all, trip us up and cause war, grief and suffering.
People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
When the karma of a relationship is done, only love remains. It's safe. Let go.
7 so you should rather turn to forgive and comfort him, or he may be overwhelmed by excessive sorrow. 8 So I beg you to reaffirm your love for him. esv
12.10.12
ANNDD ITS GOOOONE
Ang tao tanga. Ang computer mas tanga pa. Combined -- disaster!
Last night I accidentally deleted all of the messages in my inbox. All of the messages I treasured for so many years. Sweet, thoughtful texts from the people I love the most. It was too late to cancel such device deleted 200+ messages in a sec.
Yes, I'd rather erase each messages one by one and sort it out if it's an important one or not. But last night was different. I was frustrated that the guy who claims who loves me refuses to send me sweet messages on our special day. He promised he would send me sweet messages right after I deleted the first batch of his sms.
Last night I accidentally deleted all of the messages in my inbox. All of the messages I treasured for so many years. Sweet, thoughtful texts from the people I love the most. It was too late to cancel such device deleted 200+ messages in a sec.
Yes, I'd rather erase each messages one by one and sort it out if it's an important one or not. But last night was different. I was frustrated that the guy who claims who loves me refuses to send me sweet messages on our special day. He promised he would send me sweet messages right after I deleted the first batch of his sms.