Drop Call.

Remember back when people uses the term 'drop call'? When a person who called you will only stayed on the line for only and ONLY less than 5 seconds so the his carrier would not charge him for that 5-second call.

Well, fastforward to the present..
I have two cellphones like most of the people I know. But unlike them I only get few calls mostly re work, and receive few text msgs mostly from very close friends.

Even though I have two perfectly working cellphones, we still have a landline at home which occasionally rings. And when it does, I have 3 guesses who could calling:
1. One of my 3 high school friends who are still living in Lucban.
2. Digitel's billing rep reminding us the amount due and the due date.
3. Wrong number.

That is why when I answered that one call the other day, I knew it was you. I heard your voice and I listened to the sound of your breath.

''You had me at 'hello'.''

Good morning! I'm going to bed.

Much unhappiness has come into the world because of bewilderment and things left unsaid.
— Fedor Dostoevsky

i miss you.

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.
— Anonymous

i love you.

Fuck Yeah, Joseph Gordon-Levitt!

Today, I got..

1.) My Itinerary Receipt

	Confirmation No. ------	Booking Date Tue May 24, 2011	Status CONFIRMED
Flight Details
MANILA ( NAIA Terminal 3 ) to SINGAPORE ( Singapore Budget Terminal ) Departure: Monday, Nov 21, 2011 , 2125H Arrival: Tuesday, Nov 22, 2011 , 0050H Flight No.: -- ---
Guest Details
Guest Names MS Clarice		Address -- --- ---- St Lucban, Quezon 4328 PH Contact Numbers 042-911-----(telephone) 63-917-------(mobile)
Payment Details
Base Fare: PHP 1,599.00 Web Admin Fee Fee: PHP 80.00 PC: PHP 0.00 Total: PHP 2,330.75		Payment Type: PH (APPROVED) Date: Monday, May 23, 2011 Transaction ID No.: -------- Payment Amount: PHP 2,330.75 ……

2.) An email from Ron, the HR guy of Microsourcing that I failed to visit a job interview, who is sharing Oreo Cookies.

You had me at "hello."

Ally McBeal: You loved me.
Billy: Yeah. That's the truth. So much that sometimes, when we were apart, we used to keep an open phone line at night so while sleeping I could listen to your breath.

"You do what you love and fuck the rest."

In my world, when I feel like no one listens, I turn to my blog for a simple, random shout out!

And still no one dares to care. Nobody cares. I don't care either.

It's stupid being on skype with no headset, right? Right!

It's like an idiot if you're on facebook but hiding from the rest who are online and not reading random people's shits.

It's ridiculous wasting time by looking and just waiting for new tweets by people you follow on twitter.

It's non-sense being 'invisible' while online.

I've never imagined ranting here on my blog. No one cares. I don't care.

Nope, I'm not trying to make a point.

Just sayin' ..FUCK YOU!

(Now, I feel a little better. Good night!)

Au clair de la lune

Au clair de la lune
Mon ami Pierrot
Prête-moi ta plume
Pour écrire un mot
Ma chandelle est morte
Je n'ai plus de feu
Ouvre-moi ta porte
Pour l'amour de Dieu

#LMIRL

Can't wait.

Twisted Love

Say you are a girl, like me. And a guy wrote you a letter like this one:

I saw an old strand of your hair in the shower this evening. I miss you. Good night...Ive been home for days in darkness. Not going outside in case you come home. Goodnight.....Today I remembered when I picked you up at the Amsterdam airport. I had flowers, you were wearing all black. We kissed in public for the 1st time. It was amazing. Goodnight....We spent the night on a bench in Central Park, right after going to the Apple Store at 2am to check the iPhone 4. I left a message in the inbox of the display phone for you to read. Please never forget. Goodnight....I have mole right next to my upper lip. I always thought it was a blackhead but you insist it’s a mole and kiss it all the time. Goodnight....We used to do crossword puzzles side by side and even over the phone. We graduated into other things like Monopoly, Boggle, and Hidden Objects. These were simple games but we made an awesome team. I miss you, Goodnight....Every country we visited, we kissed a lot. Especially reaching over the table at one of those fancy restaurants. We always kissed. There was never enough of it. Goodnight....We checked into our hotel in Athens Greece and we told them we were on our honeymoon just so we could possibly get an upgrade. We ended even getting assigned a butler. We called for room service and the operator answered, "Yes Mrs Gumatay?" And you always got a kick out of that. Goodnight. I miss you....You were intern “Denise” on my the Podcast during the first week, taking calls and you were so good at it. You helped shape the story to make it interesting. Goodnight, I miss you.I would never rudely wake you up. It was always a slow, gentle process. “Im sorry to wake you, my love.” With hugs, kisses, and pats on the head. When you stand, I’d kneel down and put the sandals on your feet. every single time. I miss you. Goodnight...I was in Paris, you were in Singapore. We were talking on the phone as we usually do and I wanted to get you a bag. So you went into the store and I went into the store to look at the same bag, style, and colour. When you decided which one you liked, I bought it, on the other side of the world. It was fun, because we made our distance closer and an activity I enjoyed together. Goodnight I miss you....October 2010. Your birthday month. I made sure that every week you got some really great gift. Your birthday never ended. Weeks past, and I’d still greet you. I miss you. Goodnight....Tosh.0 was favorite our show. We’d order some expensive restaurant delivery food, sit on our huge dining room and watch and laugh. Crab, we had crab, big ones. It didn’t matter how much it cost, I would pay nearly anything to see you happy at home. I miss you. Goodnight....You would write on the bathroom mirror with crayon. They were great pieces of artwork—worthy of the Louvre. And I never erased it. I’d hold on to it until the condensation would take it away. Then, you’d make your next creation. I especially loved the one when you drew an outline of me so when I got home, it said “Stand here” and I’d stand in it. And there was a kiss waiting for me because of the position I was in. I miss you.Goodnight....We were walking in Paris on our first night there and we came across a street called Rue De Rohan. We said, “that’s our street” because of the play on our names. We kept repeating the street name over and over throughout our trip. Goodnight, I miss you....We first started holding hands in public that day we went to Ansons near Glorietta. I was really happy. We were holding hands in the car, we usually then “break” when we get out. But today, you didn’t care. You held it even inside and I was thrilled. A big victory that day. I miss you, Goodnight....You were in New York for work, I was in Manila. I decided to make dinner reservations at Nobu in Manhattan. I booked a flight and headed 20hrs your way for dinner that night. I was already wearing a suit coat rushing from the airport because I didn’t want to be late for this fancy restaurant, stormed into the hotel room to see if you were ready and there you were in your bathrobe. We could have missed our reservations and I wouldn’t have cared, it was just great to see you. I miss you. Goodnight....You came w/ me to a meeting for Podcast sponsors. I was supposed to make a presentation and as I tried connecting with them, you blurted out an idea of yours and they loved it. You started taking over the presentation and everyone was so amazed at what you had to say. Youre so smart and I miss you. Goodnight....You got the new car and wanted so much to drive it. So we were in Tagaytay driving around and you did such a great job. Rarely was I ever scared, you were so happy about the car. I miss you, goodnight... - @djmotwister

You'll surely feel special. Adored. And loved.

A letter like that is also the reason why it fucking hurts when the relationship ends with that kind of man. Yes, this man's relationship with his woman ended. That made him wrote down this letter. The same man who said this:

everyone, seriously, kuya Mo talking here. at least once in your life...EXPERIENCE A GREAT LOVE STORY. not in the movies, live one.

Around The World in 62 Countries

Backpack? Check!

Passport? Check!

Tickets?.. I'm booking my flight here!!! I shall fly somewhere on my birthday this year before 2012. Whoopee!

Hmm.. So where to go? Let's see..

Here are the list of countries I could enter without needing a visa. As a Filipino, I have limited destinations.

ASIA (Countries and Territories)

ASEAN
Brunei Darussalam - 14 days
Cambodia - 21 days
Indonesia - 30 days
Laos - 30 days
Malaysia - 1 month
Singapore - 30 days
Thailand - 30 days
Vietnam - 21 days

Non-ASEAN
Bangladesh 90-day visa issued upon arrival for US$50

Hong Kong - 14 days
Iran - 17-day visa issued upon arrival for US$50
Israel - 3 months
South Korea (Jeju Island only) - 30 days
Macau - 30 days
Maldives - 30-day visa issued upon arrival (free of charge)
Mongolia - 21 days
Nepal - 60-day visa issued upon arrival for US$30
Sri Lanka - 30 days
Timor-Leste - 30-day visa issued upon arrival for US$30

Africa (Countries and Territories)

Burkina Faso - 3-month visa issued upon arrival for XOF10,000
Burundi - visa issued upon arrival
Cape Verde - visa issued upon arrival
Comoros - visa issued upon arrival
Djibouti - 10-day visa issued upon arrival for DJF3,000; 1-month visa issued upon arrival for DJF5,000
Egypt (South Sinai only) - 14-day visa issued upon arrival (free of charge)
Kenya - 3-month visa issued upon arrival for US$50
Madagascar - 90-day visa issued upon arrival for MGA28,000
Morocco - 3 months
Mozambique - 30-day visa issued upon arrival for US$25
Niger - 1-month visa issued upon arrival for XOF25,000
Saint Helena - visa issued upon arrival
Seychelles - 1 month
Tanzania - visa issued upon arrival for US$50
Togo - 7-day visa issued upon arrival
Uganda - 6-month visa issued upon arrival for US$50
Zambia - visa issued upon arrival for US$25 (single), US$40 (double), and US$80 (multiple)

Europe (Countries and Territories)

Armenia - 21-day visa issued upon arrival for US$30
Azerbaijan - 30-day visa issued upon arrival for US$100
Georgia - 3 month visa issued on arrival for US$10 ~ US$200

Oceania (Countries and Territories)

Cook Islands - 31 days
Fiji - 6-month Visitor's Permit issued upon arrival (free of charge)
Marshall Islands - 30-day visa issued upon arrival (free of charge)
Federated States of Micronesia - 30 days
Niue - 30 days
Palau - 30-day visa issued upon arrival (free of charge)
Samoa - 60-day Visitor's Permit issued upon arrival (free of charge)
Tuvalu - 1-month visa issued upon arrival (free of charge)
Vanuatu - 30 days

North America (Countries and Territories)

Bermuda - 6 months
Costa Rica - 30 days
Dominica - 21 days
Haiti - 3 months
Saint Kitts and Nevis - 14 days
Saint Lucia - 6-week visa issued upon arrival for US$50
Saint Vincent and the Grenadines - 1 month
Turks and Caicos Islands - 30 days

South America (Countries and Territories)

Bolivia - 59 days
Brazil - 90 days
Colombia - 90 days
Ecuador - 90 days
Peru - 90 days
Suriname - 120 days

What's that..? S-U-R-I-N-A-M-E?? Oh gosh, I've never heard such place. Anyway, yes, just booking, no actual plans of paying for it.

Singapore is good. Hong Kong isn't bad. India wasn't on the list. As well, as Egypt. Brazil is too far. Too far means too expensive. Too expensive means Cebu Pacific does not offer flights to that destination. Vietnam and Thailand, exciting enough. Malaysia and Indonesia are on my list but not yet.. Oh, right, I should stop procrastinating 'cos I have NO ACTUAL PLANS OF PAYING FOR WHAT I BOOKED FOR. I have no money, in short.

Sigh.. Someday. (My Mantra: delay gratification. Repeat: delay gratification. Again: delay gratification.)